Its not the lack of love in a marriage that causes people to leave but the lack of friendship. And right now, as I look at my own I see the flaws in which I have contributed too as well. We are not really friends, friends. We parent with each other and we sometimes go do things with each other you know like go see a movie. But we don’t really do more than that.
I worry that I am not good enough to be the person out here spouting all the ideas of self improvement and finding your thread when I have lost the grasp on mine.
It is also hard to admit how far gone I am because I worry that people will see that as the excuse for my failures and not trust me anymore.
The thought always comes to me is that my over love for life will be the thing that kills my husband. It used to be the thing that stopped me from living because I was afraid that if I choose to live life to the shear amount of the joy that was humanly possible he will see how he wasn’t doing the same and instead of growing with me he would choose to die instead.
Grace will give you that desire. It will turn it on with such a force that the cage you locked yourself in will melt away and leave only the embers in your quake. Reminding you that you are indeed a being of power, love and possibilities.
When my Summer started, it started off with learning that my mother is dying of incurable cancer…
I have had the moments where instead of choosing to face the hard choice. I chose to turned around and walked away from an opportunity. Like the time I walked into the…
I thought that happiness was this magical thing that was hard to grasp on too but when you did it would fill you full and you never would need to search for again. I thought that to find it I would need to first find it in others. So I spent years searching for a mate and then more years searching for it in my kids.
But I forgot to search within myself.
So when I had everything I ever wanted I realized it still wasn’t what I was searching for.
When I started Hey Be Fab, I wanted it to be a community of friends that would come together in support, love and encouragement. Because that was something I was lacking in my own life. So over the last few years this little business of mine has started to shift and grow.
Friends, although I have already announced the winner for April’s Box I wanted to take a moment and talk about those who submitted artwork as well. Because I believe that they too should be congratulated for taking the first step in putting themselves out there. (to some that is the hardest step.) April’s theme was […]
Friends, I am so excited to introduce you to our FIRST Collaboration artist for The Be Fab Art Box. Jordan submitted her work along with other artists to be considered to be used as pattern for the April’s Be Fab box (coming soon) which I then tasked my Be Fab Patreon Members the choice of […]