You are not meant to exist you are meant to live. To live on your terms. To live the life you want. regardless of what others have told you in the past.
Does the heaviness of the water on my skin calm my body or am I at lost for air that I am unsure if I am truly submerge or if this is just how life should be for me now.
All I know is my lungs are screaming. My heart is pounding and life is still there.
You have to be brave enough and patient enough to make those sudden shifts in your life. You have to understand that putting your self first above all else is scary and right and needed.